[Hijikata steered clear from Sougo afterwards, but since he promised Kondou to apologise to him he decided to write him a letter. It was difficult for him to sit down and try to put his sincere feelings into words. Sougo was the last person he ever thought he would write such a letter to. It took him three nights to contemplate, and in the end it came out as barely a shot note which he slid underneath the door of Sougo's room.]
Sougo,
I know no apology will be enough to undo what I did. If you want me to stay away from you I accept that. If there is anything I can do for you, let me know.
Hijikata
P.S: Don't tell me to die, I'm already undead.
[He doesn't really expect a response that isn't another assassination attempt - unless Sougo now hates him so much that he doesn't even want his blood on his hands anymore. This thought should bring him relief, but instead it makes his heart feel heavy and occupies his mind as he returns the the headquarters from his usual nightfall trip to one of the butchers who agreed to supply the Shinsengumi with surplus blood for the "blood-drinking Amanto" they are "keeping in long-term custody".]
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[Hijikata steered clear from Sougo afterwards, but since he promised Kondou to apologise to him he decided to write him a letter. It was difficult for him to sit down and try to put his sincere feelings into words. Sougo was the last person he ever thought he would write such a letter to. It took him three nights to contemplate, and in the end it came out as barely a shot note which he slid underneath the door of Sougo's room.]
Sougo,
I know no apology will be enough to undo what I did. If you want me to stay away from you I accept that. If there is anything I can do for you, let me know.
Hijikata
P.S: Don't tell me to die, I'm already undead.
[He doesn't really expect a response that isn't another assassination attempt - unless Sougo now hates him so much that he doesn't even want his blood on his hands anymore. This thought should bring him relief, but instead it makes his heart feel heavy and occupies his mind as he returns the the headquarters from his usual nightfall trip to one of the butchers who agreed to supply the Shinsengumi with surplus blood for the "blood-drinking Amanto" they are "keeping in long-term custody".]